This week my team kicked off another year of ministry, and at our team meeting we had a devotional on Psalm 62.
Funny enough, this has been a Psalm I've been reading weekly all summer, I guess probably even longer. It also was mentioned in a sermon at a church I visited in July month. I love when God connects the dots in my life by bringing the same lesson to my attention in multiple ways. Psalm 62 is about God being our hope and refuge. The word "alone" is used multiple times (some translations say "only" or truly"). It's the same Hebrew word used in each reference ("ak" which means "alone" ... and sounds like a cat trying to cough up a hairball when pronounced). The Psalmist (likely David), uses it to highlight that it is God and only God who is our source of true hope and refuge. I've been reading some of my favorite Psalms in the ESV Devotional Psalter I picked up last spring, and love what the author writes about this Psalm: "The conviction into which this psalm is settling us is that the Lord himself is our deepest, our truest, our only stable refuge. Into what are you funneling all of your heart's anxieties? What are you banking on? What do you spend extra money on? What do you daydream about? The answer to these questions reveals our real refuge." Uffda. What do I daydream about? Lately, a husband. Now, I'm not generally someone who struggles in their singleness. Sure, there are good days and hard days. Mostly I spend my days doing a job, I love in a city I love, surrounded by incredible people that I tolerate (just kidding, I love them too). So what more could I need? Well, a husband would be nice. Some of the biggest worries in my life would probably be lessened if I had a spouse: car issues, financial security, a desire to know someone intimately and be known by them. Honestly, those are the big three anxieties that I come up again and again and again. But. My soul waits for God alone. My soul waits. For God Alone. Daydreaming about a magic fix for my problems isn't healthy. When life happens and things don't go how I expect, instead of daydreaming about a husband I can push past that fantasy and stand on the belief that God is my deepest, truest, most stable refuge. He's a rock. I can stand on the truth, on the rock, instead of on the shifting sands of my emotions. This is what it means to take thoughts captive; to say, "God, I'm not going to daydream about that. I'm going to thank you for being my ultimate refuge" and then actively think about something else instead of dreaming my worries away. My soul waits for God alone...my soul waits.
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