There comes a time in every woman's life when she turns the age her mother was when she had her. For me, that was last week. Along with my birthday card, my mom sent a couple old (ie: embarrassing) photos in the mail. One of which was a family photo: my older brothers in matching dress shirts and ties, my dad with his glaring white forehead holding a 6-month-old-me, and my mom grinning from ear to ear. It's on Instagram if you'd like to take it all in :)
I flipped over the photo and saw the date- 1986. She was 29 in the photo. As I studied our faces, my heart sank a little bit. I'm behind, I thought. I'm nowhere near having kids, or buying a house, or getting married. Or even having a serious boyfriend. But, I look around at my life, and the work I get to do everyday, and the beautiful things I get to experience, and it's hard to imagine my life being anything other than what it is. As I looked at that photo, I thought, I love the life I've built. The truth is, though, I've not really "built" anything. As I reflect on some of the best things in my life right now, I see how unexpectedly they have fallen into my lap: My role in Operations. When I joined staff with Cru, I knew I wanted to work in an office, and that was about it. But over the course of my many months raising support, God slowly shaped my heart using people's experiences, wonderful books and his Word to prepare me to work in Global Missions. I never would have said yes to the role I have now if it weren't for God specifically preparing me for it. My great roommate. We originally met because I was homeless for a month and she took me in. At the time, I was pretty frustrated I had to move in with this total stranger. But out of that frustrating housing situation a few years ago, I now have a sweet friend who challenges and encourages me - and knows me well enough to know which one I need. Opportunities to travel. Growing up I was intrigued with maps. I loved to read because I could travel to different places through stories. Part of me would like to continue this trend and never get on another plane again. But God continues to pull me out of my comfort zone, and even though I don't love the actual traveling, I do love experiencing new cultures. And I could go on and on. This life I have "built" is not something I would have ever planned out. I'm not married with 3 kids under 5 like my mom. But I'm confident in saying I am where God wants me. And I'm looking forward to seeing what lies ahead in the last year of my 20s.
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